I was 16 when I got pregnant for the first time to the boy I lost my virginity too. I lost my virginity when I was 16. Sad to say three months later I got pregnant. & just like any other story before I found out I was pregnant me & him broke up. Then a week later I just knew I was. So me and my best friend went to go get a test and it was positive. I was in shock. Didn’t really believe it. Well, eventually I had to tell my mom. I wrote her a letter I was that scared. My mom isn’t the easiest person to talk to. Well, she flipped & the first thing she said was I was getting an abortion no questions asked. So in my head I was like no. But she’s my mom. So, it’s just thing big fight. I tell my ex I was he didn’t believe me then eventually he believed me. My mom then came to me and told me it was my choice. I’m 16 what the hell do I know about raising a baby. I gotten advice. I saying not to abort and one saying to abort and they just made it sound so easy. I went to the clinic then they said they couldn’t give it to me yet. & my mom looked at me and said maybe it’s a sign. I didn’t know what to do. It’s was just a nightmare that I couldn’t wake up from. Just wanting everything to go away. & I got an ultrasound to see if the baby was there I can never forget that image that I say upon the screen. So a week later I had an abortion. Still to this day it’s been a whole year and I cry every time I think about it. I honestly regret it. But I believe it made me a stronger person. It taught me so much. I took the easier rode but then I didn’t think I would have to live with all this resentment for the rest of my life. So just really think about it. Make sure you have someone to talk to because I know I didn’t. & I still don’t. It’s gonna be hard with either decision you choose. Just be smart. Because now I feel like I’m just living a lie and sometimes I feel like it never happen that it was just some dream. But I am always reminded of it. After my abortion it didn’t bother me until months later after I realized what I really did. I went through depression and I still am to this very day. But no one knows. Just think twice not just about abortion but when you did decide to have sex unprotected. I’m 17 years old turning 18 & I’m still young but very sad inside but I made my bed and now I have to lay in it. Remember that.
As I write this msg. I feel so much shame n disrespect 4 my self. I’ve had 2 abortions d first was @ age 17 n d 2nd was @ age 18 for d same guy,he told me abortion was a simple tin,bt I told him it wasn’t bcos I’ve done it once,he then said we aren’t ready to mk babies bcos he didn’t have a good job to care for a family,how foolish n stupid I was to go tru such thing a 2nd time. Now I’m almost 21 yrs old but everytime d taught of d abortions comes to my mind like I did it 30 mins ago.I killed 2 of my children oh God in ur mercy cleans me.I went for confession in a catholic church,I was prayed for now I’m saved n 4given. I can’t wait for dat day dat I would be pregnant for my future Husband I promise never to sin against God anymore .The most important thing is to believe that u hv been forgiven if u truely confess ur sins to God Almighty,the bible says even if ur sins are as dark as scarlet,He can make u as white as snow. No time for regrets. Think of wht next u can do to please God.
i was only 15 when i first had sex wit the guy that i thought was my everything,but after the first day that we were intmit things started to change he started losing respect for me and he started pushing me to the side then i realize one day that i was not feeling so well and i never i would think if i was pregnat till my mom came in to my room and asked why i havent been going to class , after i answered her and told her i had been having stomach pains, and vomiting she asked me if i was sexually active and i told her that i had sex with him and she looked at me crying not knowing what to do.the next day around 6 in the morning she woke me up and told me to get dress that we were going somewhere, i was in shocked and when i realize where we were going i just looked at her i went in and took the pregnacy test then the doctor went into my room and told me so you are not pregnat i was relief, then there was a knock on the door it was the nurse that had attended me and said soory but i hadmto look agin if your test was right so the doctor said ill be back and came back in said that i was pregnat all i felt my body fall down and tears fall down she let me go and i went outside my mom said what happen, i told her she was dissapointed and walked away when, we got in the car she said im taking you to his house to talk to his parents, he wasnt there and i got to where he was at i showed him the paper he looked shocked and my mom told him are you ready to be a dad he said i dont know..my mom looked at me and said he isn’t ready and i cryed and he called me later that day telling me that he wanted the baby,then later that he wasnt ready and for me to have an abortion.i thought to myself i would never do that but when i knew it my mom didnt waqnt me to be struggleing and decided to take me to get an abortion i didnt want to but i was dumb and didnt know what to do but listen..my advice to every youong girl havind sex is not to get pregnat by a guy that isn’t gooing to be responsible,and not to do the mistake i did because its a nightmare and your going to feel guilty the rest of your life..
I got pregnant at 18 from a guy I was just messing with.I remember going to purchase the pregnancy test and taking it in the bathroom. I had the strangest feeling ever. I knew I didn’t want to be pregnant but when it read posetive I had the best feeling in the world. To know that this angel had life threw me. Then it hit me.I had a relationship’ we had plans of getting married in just months. Scared as I was I told my boyfriend. I asked him to forgive me. He made me get an abortion he didnt want his parents finding out since we had been in different states at the time. I cried for days before going to the clinic. I was 7 weeks and 2 days the day I stopped my pregnancy. I took the abortion pill because i was only 7 weeks along. It was the worst pain I had ever felt. I couldn’t stop crying. It took a cupple of hours and even after it hurt. A month later I moved with my boyfriend two months later I got pregnant and the feeling didnt compare to what I felt the first time. I was happy simply because this is what my boyfriend wanted more than anything. All I could think about my entire pregnancy was my unborn child. When I delivered my son and he was given to me to hold I also didnt feel anything so special. I cry all the time I think the day I aborted my first baby all my motherhood feelings went with it. It’s so hard to look at my son in the eyes knowing what I did to my first child I feel as if Im being fake to him when I tell him I love him. How can I show him so much love if I didn’t care about my first. It has been two years since the abortion and every time I look into my sons eyes I regret what I did. I always question myself what if? I always tell my boyfriend that I cant belive what he made me do. I think I fell out of love with him. He was so imature for making me do this and so was I for listening. Ive asked god for forgiveness and to that innocent angel that I didn’t let live. I’ve learned to forgive myself for what I did and just pray to god my son doesnt find out. If your thinking about abortion think twice a child brings so much joy into someones life. Every second of it. God is sending that angel your way for a reason. He is going to change your life for good.
i was 18 years old when i found out i was 8 and a half weeks pregnant and that whole time i had no idea i was that far along ..
I started having sex with this guy i used to talk to on and off after i moved back out to california. i wanted a relationship but for whatever reason he wasnt willing to commit & although i was hurt , i still continued to see him & have sex.
Around thanksgiving i started getting sick. i started throwing up and not being able to eat anything but i hid that from my parents because deep down i had a feeling something wasnt right . i went on like that for a couple weeks. Telling myself i just ate something bad but then i missed my period and i knew i had to find out ..
I called up my friend/neighbor and asked her to take me to the store to get a pregnancy test ..After we went back to her house & i went straight to her bathroom to take it .. i sat the test on her counter & layed down on her bed, having a million thoughts running through my head .. when the time was up, she went to go look and asked me if i wanted to know yet? i told her, yeah .. thinking possibly she was teasing me and that i was okay … a few seconds later & she told me it said yes .. i cried my eyes out but she comforted me and deep down .. i was excited .. i want kids and i love them …
i told the guy that the reason i had been feeling so sick was because i was pregnant.. that day he came and saw me and we talked about it .. but he wanted abortion .. i was slightly shocked he had said that but i went with his decision ..
i called my mom & oregon and told her about what was happening and that i needed help because icouldnt tell these parents that i live with .. she sent me the money and he came up with half and a week or so later .. i was at the clinic for my appointment ..
i was so scared .. when the doctor did the ultra sound .. i was laying there .. and she asked me if i wanted to see my baby and i said yea .. [ i wish i never said i wanted to but i really did want to see] after she asked if i was sure i wanted to do the pill abortion .. i thought for a second and said yea .. i do ..
the next day, i spent a few days @ my sisters house because since my parents @ my house didnt know, the doctor said i had to be around people who knew what was going on . so i had to tell my sister and her adoptive parents about my situation and they allowed me to come and wait it out there ..
taking the pill abortion .. was thee most painful experince i had to go through .. not only physically but emotionally .. i thought i was going to die , as i layed there in the bed bleeding and squeezing the sheets .. tears coming down my face .
it was finally all over and the process was done ..
but, now .. i am so emotionally messed up .. i am obsessed with baby shows like Teen Mom and 16&Pregnant .. i watch these shows and cry .. but i also sit there and wish i could of had my baby ..
it haunts me in my sleep .. where ever i go .. and even after all that i went through .. the guy still didnt make me his girlfriend ..
on a slight good note .. i feel in love with my guy bestfriend .. who was there for me through it all ..
im not happy with my decision .. i do regret it .. but at the same time .. everything happens for a reason and i believe i wouldnt be blessed with a great guy that, someday i will have kids with and actually be happy <3
I was 19 when i found out i was pregnant, after a missed period and being tired all day everyday i went to a CVS and bought a pregnancy test when I read the results and saw that i was going to be a mommy I couldnt hold back the tears, I was so happy. I told my boyfriend and he was just as happy as i was, he made sure that i went to the doctor and we picked out names and spent the whole night talking about what it would be like to be parents. Money wasnt a issue because we both worked and had great jobs. He told his parents and family and they were just as supportive for their 22 year old son. I kept putting off telling mines because I feared that they would not be supportive but my mom did find out after my doctors office called to confirm my appointment. When she came to me and asked me if I was pregnant it hurt my heart to tell her yes because of the tears that were already in her eyes, after we talked I knew she wanted me to get an abortion something I never thought I would hear my mother say to me or anyone. An abortion was the last thing I ever wanted to do but when my father found out the he told me the best thing to do is “get rid of it” now that one hurt me bad, I mean to hear my father to me to get rid of his grandchild is more painful than getting shot. A coupe days later he found out about my choice to keep my baby and he stopped talking to me for days and I didnt know how I was going to have a baby and not have the support from my father, even my friends who were 16 and 17 when they got pregnant had their entire family for support and I barely had my mom. I didnt know what I did that would make the biggest choice in my life be the saddest moment in life. I was pressured into getting an abortion, I felt as if my father didnt love me anymore and that was too much for me to handle, even though if this was a couple weeks ago I would have said forget him, im keeping my baby. April 3, is the day I muredered my baby, i was only 11 weeks pregnant, it didnt hit me until the next day what I just did and even though I watched them carry my baby away in a jar in pieces and I broke down crying nothing I say or do can bring my baby back. I cry everyday for my baby, telling her sorry and I beg for her forgiveness and God’s; he blessed me what a baby and I just kill his gift. What kind of a person does that make me? I pray that I can meet her one day and that she doesnt hate me even though I would if it were me. I suffer from every kind of side effect from that abortion; depression, loss of sleep ( I try not to sleep at night because I would wake up from a nightmare about a baby), sucide thoughts, uncontrollable crying episodes, reduced motivation ( what do I have to motivate me, my child is dead!!), guilt, relationship problems ( my boyfriend and I are no longer together because I couldnt stay in a relationship with that weighing on my heart.) I will never be over what i did, not even having another child will make me feel any better; I WANT THE BABY THAT WAS TAKEN FROM ME!! and if it wasnt for my father i would have her. 2 weeks since my baby’s death and a lifetime left to go.
had just turned 17 when i found out i was pregnant. It was a moment i had been dreaming about since i was young… having a family of my own is all i ever wanted. i had only been with My boyfriend at the time for 4 months when i found out in april, i concieved almost straight away as i was almost 4 months pregnant. I was so happy. My Boyfriend was not so happy, he was asain so to him it was a sin as we wasnt married. I knew i had to tell my mom but tried to put it off for so long as i knew exactly how she would react. In the end i took the cowardly way out and wrote her a letter, left it on the side and ran away to my boyfriends house. I got a phonecall about 30 minz later saying i had to go home and sort it out. I remember sitiing on the floor with my mom while she was crying. All she kept saying was ‘you dont want this, i know you dont want this’ but i did sooo bad. Then i was told that if the baby is what i want then i have no place under her roof, and how my dad must never find out as he would literally kill me. My dad was majorly racist, so it wouldnt be the fact i was pregnant but the fact of who the baby’s father was. So between my mom, dad, and boyfriend i had no other choice but to abort my baby. I went to the clinic in Birmingham, it was the worst day of my life. They did a scan, and told me the baby i was about to kill was a little boy! I was heart-broken, but there was no turning back at this point. It was time then to do the deed. i had to be put to sleep and it was some sort of suction operation as i was so far gone. i woke up devestated, i got a pack wen i left of tablets and leaflets, inside was a copy of my scan that i still sleep with to this day. i stopped sleeping, eating, going out, i was a complete mess and still am. It was the worst thing i ever did and i will regret it till the day i die. My son would be 4 in november. Before anyon makes a decision like that please think and think again. I wish i did. I am now 21, and due to be married in 8 months, me and my fiance are trying for a baby and have been for the last 18 months but still no joy. I hope that in time it will happen and i will have the family i always dreamed of having.
I found out i was pregnant on valentines day. My boyfriend had just broke up with me two days before. I was miserable i went two weeks without telling anyone. My ex decided to call me one day out of the blue and i decided to tell him. He was so mad and he blamed it all on me saying it was my fault that i got pregnant and that it wasn’t his fault at all because he was “shooting blanks” he said. I felt so awful, i had never been so low in my life. I never wanted an abortion, i knew from day one that i was going to keep it, with the dad by my side or not. But i was so in love with my ex. He was my everything, even though i was his side dish and he had a real girlfriend of the past five years. After he stopped being mad my ex decided he was going to be there for me and our baby. We got back together and things were going great. Then he started drinking alot and he became so mean. I hated him but for some reason i stayed with him. I hadn’t told my parents yet and only my boyfriend and bestfriend knew. When i was 9 weeks he decided that he didn’t want a baby and that the baby would just ruin our lives so he pushed me to get rid of it. I left him and stopped talking to him completly. I didn’t want to have an abortion and if that meant he wouldnt be a part of our babys life then so be it. I was 11 weeks when i just hit rock bottom, i was so depressed i had noone to go to. So i went back to my ex. He finally convinced me to get an abortion, he even told me that we would go back to being in love and happy when i got it done. The day we went to the clinic i was sick to my stomache i knew this wasn’t what i wanted but i did it for him because i thought he loved me and i just wanted to make him happy and be with him. He left me the very next day. I felt so hurt and used. I regret ever getting the abortion, i only did it for him. That never should have been the reason why i did it. I was 13 weeks and three days. I have an ultrasound and it breaks my heart everytime i look at it. I could have done it, i could have kept my baby and raised it. But i didn’t and in a way i hate myself for it.
In August of 2009, I found out I was 4 weeks pregnant. At first, I was ecstatic. I absolutely love children and since I had been told it was impossible for me to get pregnant without fertility drugs, I felt like God had blessed me. I told my family and at first they were disappointed because I was 19 and in still in college. Then everyone quickly got used to the idea and got really excited and happy. Everyone bought me baby stuff and I went and registered. Everything was wonderful.
The father refused to talk to me or have anything to do with me. It killed me, but I knew that with my family…I could make it. I went to my 2nd ultrasound with my mother and my grandmother. That day, I saw my babies heartbeat. It was 150bpm. I also got to hear it. The moment i heard it, I knew that that was the best sound I would ever hear. I started crying and I couldn’t stop. I was so happy. It was the most amazing experience of my life. This was my baby.
Then…everything fell apart. On September 12th, I woke up feeling like I couldn’t do this. I convinced myself that if I kept the baby, I wasn’t going to be able to go to school and my parents would end up raising myself and my child. I didn’t want that. I wanted to be able to give my child everything and I felt like I couldn’t. I knew that once I had my child, I wouldn’t be able to give it up. So adoption was out of the question. My mother had an abortion when she was 15 and so I approached her. I literally fell to the ground and started bawling. I felt so alone. I told her that’s what I wanted and she agreed to pay for it. I thought that I would have a little time to think about it, but at 9 weeks, I didn’t want to wait any longer and on the 15th, I went in for my abortion.
I wish my mom would have told me that I would hate myself this much. I feel like I killed my child. If I had have thought about it more, I would have kept it. Looking back, I realize that I was just trying to rationalize it to myself. I could have made it. I could have given my baby a wonderful life.
I’ll never get over this pain. And I wish I was pregnant more than anything. I almost feel that if I were to get pregnant again, it would help take some of the pain away. I can’t express the guilt I feel. I’m completely miserable. I still love my child more than anything in the world, but I’ll never be able to hold him.
My due date would have been Monday (April 12th, 2010) and I wish more than anything that I had my baby. If I could take it back, I would. I don’t regret anything in my life…except for that. I named my baby. I feel that since I took my child’s life, the least I can do is give her a name. I’ll always be a mom…a mom who lost her child.
I was with this guy i met him my freshman year, first we started talking then it became much more. I fell in love i never felt so much for someone before. He told me he loved me i told him i loved him, we would talk about having a baby and how we were going to get married. It was so amazing, but also was horrible, He wasnt the nicest guy you could say, he was the bad boy. Im not going to lie he treated me bad most of the times, but when he was nice he was the best ever. So time goes on and we broke up but we stilll stayed talking and he still treated me bad i went through so much, and finally one day i was pregnant two years later i was so scared and happy at the same time that all we would talk about before was going to come true, but he didnt think of it that way, he wanted to get rid of it and told me that if i didnt do it he was going to leave me, and he wasnt going to help me and so on… so what do i do so he wouldnt leave me, i did it so he would be happy because i loved him and he told me later on we would have another,but it was the most horrible thing i ever done. I would sit in my bed crying asking for forgiveness from god and my baby, the day i went to the clinic was the scariest day of my life. I felt so alone, i woke up crying and crying because i couldnt believe i went through it. It wasnt worth, He wasnt worth it, its been four years from that and my boyfriend and I broke up, I couldnt forgive him and i still cant, Im full of anger not only on him but myself, i still cry about it. I see a baby i cry get sad and just think that this could of been my baby. Ill never know if it would of been a girl or a boy, how would it look like, so many things that i will never know. My advice to young girls and women that if you decide on abortion be sure that thats exactly what you want to do 100% percent and that your doing it for yourself and know one else because having an abortion is something you will carry on through the rest of your life the pain of knowing you did this to your baby is horrible.