Archive for May, 2009

31.05.2009

Shelby 

When I was 15 I fell pregnant. My boyfriend knew he wasn’t the dad because we had just got together a few days before I found out. I told my family who wanted me to get an abortion. I didn’t want to so I tried to continue my pregnancy. I loved the thought of going to be a mum and having a beautiful little boy or girl, and so did my boyfriend and friends. I was 2 and half months pregnant when I was forced into getting the abortion. I tried to cover it up to my friends and boyfriend saying I miscarried, but they found out. Now 3 months later I have lost my friends and boyfriend and my family never talks about it. It hurts me every single day knowing I killed my baby, and every night I cry myself to sleep. Now I can’t look at the baby clothes I had bought, anyone who is pregnant, and young children. I wish I had never gotten rid of my baby. I wish I could have him/her back. Please don’t get an abortion. You may think it’s the easy way out, but you will regret it the way I do.

Baby Taylor - There is never a day that goes by when mummy doesn’t think about you. I’m sorry for taking your life before it had even begun. I love you so much wee barra xxx

Yoland 

My abortion occured when i was in college. I was 17 around the time. The guy that I was with was 22. He decided that I was too young to have a child, and he was in fear of my parents. Since they were abusive parents, I myself did not think twice. I agreed, and it was done.

When it was over I cried like a baby. After a few weeks the guy broke up with me. He told me that his mother found a girl for him and that he had to respect his mother’s wishes. I cried again and continued.

Jessica 

I’m 17 years old and currently studying for my year 12. I found out just after Christmas that I was pregnant. I became quite sick, yet grew very attatched to my baby. I told my partner and he was supportive, but he made it clear he didn’t want the baby. We told both sets of parents. Mine were very good but said at the end of the day it was our decision, whilst his mum told me I’d be ruining her son’s life, as did other family members of his. I wanted to keep my baby, yet for some reason I let them (what I felt was) bully me into the choice.

I had the operation in January of this year. Since then every time I see a child, clothing, the date, what month I would be up to, I begin to resent them. All he wants is to go to the pub or town with the boys. I stay at home, as since the abortion I dont agree with the same viewpoints as friends toward parties, etc. So here I am all ALONE. I regret the decision so much. I’d do anything to turn back the clock. I still don’t know how to deal with the emotional side and the triggers, but don’t make the choice for the sake of others. At the end of the day they aren’t there for you.

28.05.2009

Shannon 

I was 16 when I got pregnant. I didn’t know what to do, and I hated my baby’s daddy. It was only a one night stand. Three weeks later my period didn’t return. I went 5 months without telling my mom. I was scared. I was only in the 10th grade, and I was very scared.

My mom and my friends told me to keep it, but I was afraid they would disown me. To this day forward I live with it. But I know the next time. Every life is as precious as mine. Think twice before you do somthing. I Promise you will regret it later. I did!!!

27.05.2009

Jane 

I first got pregnant when I was 17 years old. I had the courage to face my parents, and I was able to have my baby knowing that I had nobody’s support. Four years have passed, and 3 weeks ago I found out I was pregnant for a second time. 3 days ago I got an abortion, and it has been the worst mistake I have ever made. I cannot understand why I did not had the courage to face my parents again.

I walked into the clinic knowing I wanted to keep my baby. Every minute I kept thinking to myself I have to leave and keep my baby. It did not happen. I let them kill my baby. I was 6 weeks pregnant. As soon as I left the clinic I broke into tears asking God and my baby for forgiveness. It is a pain I cannot explain. I feel so empty and guilty. I wish i could go back in time. I have a lot of physical and emotional pain. All I can do now is just pray for forgiveness and learn how to live with this guilt. Please think about it. It’s a decision that will change your life forever.

Falyn 

My life changed on October 22, 2008. When I was 18 I got an abortion out of fear. My number one goal in life has always been to have a baby, and I gave her/him up because I didn’t think I would be able to handle the pressure. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about the horrible thing I did and pray for another chance to have that same baby. For weeks after the abortion I prayed that the abortion failed and I would still end up having that baby.

If you are pregnant and are not sure if you want a baby, please just have it. You may not be ready, but the day the doctor hands you that baby I guarantee you that being a mother will come naturally. I could have dropped out of high school, supported myself and a baby, raised the baby alone, and been disowned by my family but would still feel so much better than the pain I feel now, every single day of my life. I recently have been trying to get pregnant again. The guilt has taken its toll on me and I want another chance to show I can give up my whole life for the life that is inside of me.

Kesia 

I am 19 years old and had an abortion when I was 18 in December. I wasn’t with the father anymore. I left him about a month after I found out because he treated me badly, and even though he wanted to be there I didn’t want to be with him. I planned on keeping the baby and got to fourteen weeks. I had heard the heart beat and seen the pictures. I never planned on an abortion, but I had no one supporting me My mom yelled about it, and I knew I couldn’t raise it on my own and still finish college and work without help. It would be so hard. I’m pro-choice, but i didn’t think I could ever do that. So I scheduled the appointment. I knew I had to do it fast or I’d back out.

I showed up, talked to the counselor, waited an hour for my cervix to soften, then had the procedure done. I’m going to be honest, it was the worst pain I have ever felt in my entire life. I was mortified. I was trying not to scream so the other people wouldn’t be scared. I had to sit in a room for about 20 minutes after and then left. I was depressed for a few weeks. I was bleeding for about four. If I could go back I would never have done it. I was excited at first but let everyone around me bring me down. I was so alone and so sad, and now I sit here wondering what it would be like…in twenty days I would have been a mother to a beautiful baby. I will never forget that feeling, and I will never go through with an abortion ever again just because no one will support me.

24.05.2009

Jamie 

I was 14 years old when I got pregnant. I told my boyfriend at the time; and he and his family stopped talking to me, saying they wanted nothing to do with me and the baby if I decided to keep it. My mom supported me 100%.

It was tough though. She was losing her job, and money was tight. Also, 14 was when I started getting into drinking and drugs; and I was selfish and only really thought about myself.

It has been a little over a year since my abortion, and there is not one day that goes by that I don’t regret what I did. So, if you’re considering abortion, I would say think it out 100%. The pain I went though and the pain I still go through is horrible.

23.05.2009

Shaunna 

I was 14 when it happened. I thought I was in love with a guy, and I genuinely was. One day he commited suicide, and I’ve never understood why. Then I found out I was pregnant, too far gone for a normal “suction” abortion. I was 20 weeks and 5 days. I had no idea what to do, where to go, and no one to turn to. I told myself that abortion was the only way, as I never really thought I’d be giving birth to a dead baby.

When the ordeal was over I found it hard to cope, and it’s been 3 years since. I have never come to terms with what I did. All the advice I can give is to never do something until you are absolutely sure.

22.05.2009

Marie 

I am 18 years old, and I found out I was pregnant last week. I panicked. My boyfriend and I have only been together for a month and a half and we didn’t know what to do. We both knew that we were not ready for a baby and that we didn’t have the financial means to take care of one. The day after I found out I was pregnant I had an abortion. At first I figured it was the only way out; but after I did it, I felt empty. I started crying, and I regret not keeping it.