Archive for October, 2009

Keyeh 

Hi, I am 13 years old. I remember the day when me and my boyfriend where messing around one night. It was my 1st time ever having sex. We used a condom and I thought I was safe, but I guess not. The condom broke while we were making love. I never thought I would get pregnant my 1st time. I figured I was too young and my mom would be so mad, so I decided to tell my older sister instead of my mom.

I asked her to take me to the clinic so I could get an abortion. I was 2 months and 3 weeks. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life, and sometimes I wish I kept my baby. I feel so bad when I think about it, and when I see pregnant mothers or baby clothes I think about my little one I would have had.

Tyeisha 

Hello, my name is Tyeisha and I am 15 years old. I had an abortion this summer on 8/18/09 and it devestated me. I was only 5 weeks and 2 days, but it felt like I might as well be throwing my own daughter into the trash can. I had my ultrasound and everything. If anyone is wondering when do you get over stuff like this, the answer is never. 

I feel better when I talk to my baby and tell her how much I love her and miss her. It gets real hard some days because I remember talking to my belly, even though you couldn’t see anything; and I just knew that she was going be the most gorgeous baby alive. But just remember, everybody makes mistakes. Also, if you’re wondering why, the main reason was that the man who fathered my child was 31 years old and sold weed. I’m sorry, but I didn’t want that to be around my child. That’s not the life they deserve to live! Even though every one deserves to live, I know I’ll see her again. Love you, Sunshine. Sincerely, Mom

Kristin 

I was 16, almost 17, when I found out I was pregnant. I had mixed emotions. I was upset, but then again I was happy. I wanted to keep my baby, but my parents would not let me.

It has been 7, almost 8, years and it is harder on me than it ever has been before. I have 2 children now, one boy and one girl, and I still regret my decision. I love them so much, but I have had a hard time bonding with them because of the emotional problems my abortion has caused. I hope my story will help someone else who is faced with the decision to abort their baby. The scars and hurt will last forever.

Autumn 

When I was 14 I had sex with someone I thought I was in love with. It was my first time. He made me feel like nothing could hurt me. A few weeks later I took a pregnancy test. It was positive. I didn’t believe it. I took 4 more. All said the same thing. I was going to tell him, but two days before I was, he said he couldn’t cheat on his girlfriend any more and he left me.

I ended up aborting the baby so his girlfriend wouldn’t find out he had been sneaking behind her back. I never ended up telling him. Someone else told him. Aborting my baby was the worst thing I’ve ever had to do; and to this day, I want a baby. I think about it every day, and I’ve been trying to get my boyfriend to agree to have a baby. My baby should have been born in July. I want a baby because I know that it will never leave. It will always be dependent on me for love, care, and nurture.

Emma 

I was fourteen years old when I got pregnant. The daddy was a drinker who was only sixteen. My mom and dad pressured me into an abortion. I always wanted my daughter. I had a name for her: Delilah Rose. She was my reason for living, getting up in the morning, doing well in school, getting a job. I loved my baby girl more than life. But my parents decided I was going to abort.

Not a day goes by that I don’t miss my daughter. I love her and I always will. My heart will never completely heal from this, and when I have a baby I will always feel like my family isn’t complete. I will always have her in my heart. Delilah, you are my everything. I love you forever. Love, Mommy

Anonymous 

When I was 18 years old I found out that I was pregnant. It was the shock of my life, and for nearly a month I kept it to myself hoping that my period would just come. I finally told my boyfriend, and he was scared. He started to talk about how that was going to ruin his life. He told me he would never be able to go to college and his father would make sure he didn’t. He didn’t even care about me and how I was feeling. After the initial shock we started to talk about our options. He immediately started to push for abortion. I told him I wasn’t sure and comfortable with that, but he wouldn’t stop pushing me. I ended up having to get an abortion and paid for it by myself. I had to take the bus to the clinic, and when I was leaving I felt horrible. When I went to him I acted strong, but it was tearing me up inside. He had no idea what had happened and didn’t care as long as it was over.

After the abortion he completely changed and became this person I didn’t know. The combination of college and an abortion turned him into a completely different person, and we ended up splitting up. I loved this man with all my heart, and because I loved him I gave up my child…my little boy or girl that I will never get to see or hold. Every day I wish Iwould have chosen that child because its love for me and my love for it would have been unconditional.

Jamie 

I was 14 when I lost my virginity and became pregnant. I had no idea what to do. When I told my boyfriend at the time, he simply said, “Get rid of It.”

I finally told my mom when I was about two months pregnant. She was very disappointed, but also supportive. She told me that whatever choice I made she would be okay with. I told her I thought about keeping it. She said she would buy everything the baby needed but she would not help raise the child. She also called my boyfriend’s parents to see what they thought of everything. They were not happy and said that they would have nothing to do with the child and neither would my boyfriend.

I guess I thought abortion was the only way out because I knew I was not going to be able to raise a child on my own.

My abortion was April 24th 2007. It was the hardest thing I will ever have to do. I still think about It every day of my life. No one ever warned me that things would be like this after I had one. I feel like a part of me is missing. For awhile, I WANTED to get pregnant just because I thought it would fill the place in my heart where I felt like something was missing. I also started to drink pretty much everyday and started doing a lot of drugs to numb the pain. I ended up overdosing about three times.

I often have nightmares about it and just days where all I do is cry. For awhile I became somewhat of a slut and just wanted to have sex because I thought it would make me feel better about myself, even though it made me feel worse and dirty.

Having an abortion is a really hard thing to live with, and I wish I would have read more into everything before having one. My advice is don’t have sex. But, If you do, use protection because you don’t want to live with the guilt every day.

Lia

I was 17 when I found out I was pregnant. At first I didn’t believe it and kept saying no I’m not…I can’t be, but I was…I was in school when I found out. Now imagine that!! I cried and already knew I was going to get on abortion. It was telling me boyfriend that made me sad. I knew he wanted to keep it but knew it was going to be the best thing.

It happened about a week ago, and I didn’t even cry until I was at his house hours later!! All I could think about was I just killed my child…his child, but now I don’t think bout it much…but once in awhile I wish I kept it!!! I just try not to think about it…

14.10.2009

Jessica 

I was 14 years old when I found out I was pregnant. I had been with my boyfriend for about a year. He was only 16. I was really scared. My mother thought I was a virgin. She used to tell me if I ever got pregnant she would kick me out. Scared, I chose to tell my 20 year old sister. She told me I could not tell my mom because I would cause her to get sick. I told her I wanted to keep it. I knew I was young, but a part of me knew if I told my mom she would have helped me. My boyfriend at the time told me the decision was up to me. My sister told me I had no options and I had to have an abortion. She set the appointment for me and took me. I was 2 months pregnant the day I had the abortion. When i was there I just wanted to run out. My sister was there telling me to just do it. Then it was just gone.

It took me a year before I could tell my mom. I’m 18 years old now. That was exactly 4 years ago. Every day I regret it. There is an empty feeling inside of me. When I look at little kids I can’t help but feel sad. After the abortion I just had so much hate toward my sister and boyfriend. This is something I have to live with for the rest of my life. So for all the young girls who get pregnant, talk to your moms and take time before you make a decision. You might just regret it, and then it will be to late.

Sarah 

I am sixteen years old and a junior in high school. I recently decided to have an abortion because I could not deal with what it would do to anyone in my family. This all started when I began working at my current job in June, 2008. I met this great guy who I was not sure I liked at first, and he felt the same way. As time went on we started working together more and before I knew it I couldn’t go a day without thinking about him. We decided to have sex in June, 2009. It was my first time and his birthday. I discovered two months later that I was two months pregnant. I couldn’t handle the thought of that. I scheduled the abortion for two weeks later, a few days before school started. I never told him or anyone about the pregnancy.

I regret all of it every day. Anyone planning to have an abortion, don’t do it. I cry every day. I cannot focus at school, and I can’t even look the guy in the face who I once couldn’t stop thinking about. This was the biggest mistake of my life, and what’s even worse is I can’t tell anyone.