Archive for May, 2010

Leslie 

I was 16 years old when I got pregnant. February 2, 2010, was the day when my baby…died. It was my biggest mistake I have ever made, and my boyfriend didn’t know that we had our 1st baby.

I cry every night. I feel guilty when I see people having there babies. I wanna die…I really really hate myself.

I always want to be with my baby again, and I really miss the small kick of my precious one.

SORRY MY PRECIOUS LESTER….IMISSU&ILOVEU 4-EVER…

Emilee 

When I was 17 I got pregnant with my first child, who was born on October 31, 2008. She is my life. When I was 19 I got pregnant again in March, 2010, by the same guy, who had just goten out of jail for beating me. I didn’t want another baby. The father had never even supported his first child, and I was already struggling to provide for my first child. How could I possibly support a second baby? I’m only 19, and I’m still in college.

I made the selfish decision of aborting my baby when I was a little shy of 8 weeks pregnant. At the time I thought I was doing the right thing, but now I regret it and cry almost every day. Sure the procedure is so fast, but you live with the pain every single day of your life.

To mommy’s little angel in Heaven - I’m sorry I made a selfish, heartless decision. I regret it every day of my life. I will always love you, and I hope you know that. If I could do it over, I wouldn’t have made the decision I made. I love you baby.

Katie 

I am 17, and I had an abortion 2 weeks ago. That day was the worst day of my life. I sat and cried up until I was under general anaesthetic. My boyfriend and I have been together 6 months; and he’s been here the whole way; but he, just as I, wasn’t ready to look after a child. But I had gotten so attached. There was a connection…it was my baby growing inside of me.

I’m not sure now whether it was the right decision. I sit and burst into tears most days knowing that I have killed my first child. I’m not sure how I feel about it. Sometimes I just wish I would have kept the baby. I knew I could have done it. The baby is never off my mind, and I think it never will be. It’s so hard to see other babies and other people my age pregnant, knowing I could have done the same. You can do it! You’ve just got to be brave!

29.4.10 - Sweet Dreams Angel <3 You Will Never Be Forgotten.

Mia 

I was 13 when I had sex for the first time with my boyfriend.  On our first time we used a condom, but on our second time we forgot. Then I was late. I took a pregnancy test, and it was positive. I was only 14. 14…I can’t be pregnant. I just can’t be. That’s what I thought, but I was pregnant.

I went to the doctor to find out for sure. I told my mom two weeks later. She pressured me into abortion. I wanted adoption, but I gave in. I have regretted it ever since. There were lots of complications, and I’ll probably never be able to have kids again. I’m 17 years old now.

 Jay

I was 16 when I found out that I was pregnant. My boyfriend and I had often had unprotected sex, and I stressed about it a lot, so when it happened I wasn’t surprised. My parents would probably kick me out, so I had planned on moving in with him. He had lost his job awhile before, and his exact words to me were, “I can’t support you.  If you have this baby, you’re on your own. I dont want your child.” We had a long fight, and I refused the abortion for another 3 weeks.

Eventually I knew that I had nowhere to turn. If my parents kicked me out, I’d have nowhere to go; so I agreed eventually; and the pain and loss I felt was unbearable. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about my baby and what I had done - having someone reach inside me and kill my child. I’ll never forgive myself or the man that forced me to give up my baby.

Unknown 

I am 16 now and started having sex with my boyfriend when I was 15. Four months ago I figured out I was prenant. I first went to my friends, then finally to my boyfriend. My friends told me how they would help me take care of it and always stick by my side, but my boyfriend on the other hand was completly against it. He strongly suggested that I get an abortion and that if I were to follow through with the pregnancy he would not back me up. Due to this, I decided on abortion. Looking back, I wish I would have talked to my parents or an adult who would have given me more advice on the situation.

Brandi 

I was 15 years old when I found out I was pregnant. My boyfriend was a year older than me, and we loved each other more than anything. One day I just started craving things out of the ordinary and kept finding myself rushing to the bathroom thinking I was going to throwup. I personally just thought I was sick. But after my boyfriend told his mom what was going on she bought us the pregnancy test. Not even a minute passed and it turned positive. We didnt have a clue as to what to do, and I dreaded telling my mom.

My mom is the one who suggested abortion, and my boyfriend said it was also the best choice. My mom told me how much I would be ruining my life if I chose to keep the baby. I didn’t want to believe her, but not even knowing my options I really thought an abortion was the answer.

I live every day in regret knowing what I did to a baby that was so innocent, knowing my child could have been a teacher, or a doctor, or whatever they wanted to be. I took their future away for my own selfishness. I should have looked more into options for the baby before I just listened to my mom. You believe you’re family always wants the best of you, but sometimes you need to take it upon yourself to figure those things out.

Melissa 

Well it was the beginning of my junior year of high school. I’d been with my boyfriend for barely 3 months, and the week after his 18th birthday I found out I was 7 weeks pregnant. I was mortified, and I had no idea what to do. I told a few friends, but they were to shocked to help me figure out what to do.

So my mom made an appointment, and I had to get blood taken and be touched by strangers and yelled at by protesters. It was the worst thing ever. I had a medical abortion. My baby came out still whole, not in pieces. I saw its little fingers and toes and eyes, and it broke my heart.

My boyfriend was never there for me. He wanted to be, but my mom wouldn’t let me see him for a month while I dealt with the pain. My abortion was Sept 11, 2009. Today is Mother’s Day 2010, and I am a mother with no child. My boyfriend and I are engaged and somewhat happy, but our child is always on our mind and is a constant reminder to us of how strong we are to have made it through that experience.

I constantly wish I had made a different decision or had someone say, “Are you sure?” but no one did. I live with no regrets no matter what, and sadly I can’t regret it because it has brought me great opportunities to not be pregnant, but I’d give anything to still have my baby here with me.

Chell 

I was 15. It really didn’t come to my attention that I was pregnant until the boy who I was going with said I could be pregnant, so I started to wonder like, “Could I really be pregnant?” But I just didn’t think about it, and I was in a relationship with another boy at the time, so I told him. He was mad but got over it because he loves me. So he took me to get a pregnancy test, and when I took it the results came back as positive. I wasn’t shocked, but I just had a bad feeling about the whole thing, so I told my big sister what happened. She told me to wait and see if my cycle came on, so I did, but it never did come.

So one day I decided I needed to tell my mama, so I wrote her a letter. She wasn’t upset but was very disappointed. She didn’t ask me what I wanted to do. Instead she told me what was going to happen. So the day I went for my abortion I wasn’t really thinking about if I would miss him or if I would think about him as much as I do today.

R.I.P Lil Rashaad-01.27.10-mommy loves you!

Julie 

I was 18 when I found out that I was 5 weeks pregnant. I never thought that I could get pregnant, so when I found out I was in total shock! I didn’t know how I was going to tell my boyfriend. That day I found out was the day of spring break. My boyfriend and I went to the mall that day, and everything was going so good. I just didn’t know how to tell him, and then at the end of the night on our way home I finally told him.

Keeping the baby never crossed his mind. The first thing he said was, “So when are you getting the abortion?” It hurt me so much to hear him say that. I never wanted to get an abortion. I always told myself that I’m going to keep my first child no matter what the situation that I’m in, but because my boyfriend didn’t want to keep it I had to get an abortion.

On the same day after the abortion my boyfriend broke up with me. So I had no support because none of my family or friends knew about it. I’m in this all alone. I cry and cry everyday. It hurts me to see babies now and seeing pregnant people. All I can think about is who would my child have looked like, who’s eyes would he/she have had, how tall would he/she be, the hair, nose, height, etc., every little detail.

April 24th was the day I made the biggest mistake of my life! I wish I could take it back, but truth of the matter is that this is reality…ain’t no turning back! So young ladies out there, think about what you’re doing before you make your final decision. This is a person’s life that you’re taking away. You’ll live with this regret for the rest of your life!