Archive for June, 2010

AmandaI am currently 19, almost 20. When I was 16 I found out I was pregnant. My boyfriend and I had been dating for three years and we were engaged. We told my parents; and my dad freaked out, keeping me up into the early hours of morning telling me that I would make him look bad if I had my baby and that I was stupid and dumb and too immature to take care of a child. After two weeks of being yelled at and ridiculed I had my abortion.

I never got to tell my ex’s parents that I was even pregnant because my dad was forcing me to abort. The day of my abortion I was scared as hell. I didn’t want to do it but couldn’t not do it because of my father. I couldn’t look at my baby on the screen when they took the picture because I already felt guilty. To this day I HATE myself, and when I see others with their babies I still cry. I know that I am going to burn in hell for what I did, and I regret every day that has gone by that I didn’t keep my baby. She would’ve been 3 and a half today. I imagine all the time on how much my life would be different and how I know that I would’ve been a great mommy. 

I think sometimes about if I ever get pregnant again how I am going to act. I think I’m going to be very scared because no one knows of the past; and although it will be my firstborn, it will not be my first. I wish everyday since that horrible day that I hadn’t done it and I had my baby today. Telling you this is bringing me to tears again and reminding me how much this really hurt. My current boyfriend and I are going for a test tomorrow to find out if I am pregnant, and I know that his mom is going to tell me to get an abortion or she’s going to kick us out. I’m keeping my baby, and NO ONE is going to interfere with our lives and tell us what to do.

Jeniffer 

I found out I was pregnant Feb. 11th, 2010, my senior year. I had been with my boyfriend for 3 years, but I cheated on him and didn’t know what to do. Not only that, my mom kicked me out. I was homeless and didn’t want to be one of those girls on Maury, so I got the money together and made an appointment at our local abortion clinic. It was horrible. I was in a room with woman of all ages and races and everyone’s face looked the same…either full of sadness or full of selfishness. When they were putting me under I felt pain run down me, and all I could think about was my baby, so I grasped my stomach.

Then I remember walking up and feeling such hatred for myself. The protesters were still outside, but I didn’t care about anything except what I had just done. Everyday I think about what could have been, and I’m terribly sorry. I see embryos everywhere now…mostly when I look in the sky. R.I.P Zooey 03~04~10.

 Lucia

That year was the worst . Everything bad happend. I was going out with a guy. In the begging he had a girlfriend, but then I met him, and he started talking to me . Then he asked me out. I didn’t know he was going out with somebody, but I didn’t respond to him . Then I found out. He told me that he really liked me and was sorry for not liking her, and he convinced me. We went out for a month. Then I found out he cheated on me. I broke up with him. He asked me back out, and he told me the sweetest things, like I love you…Please don’t do this to me, and stuff. And he convinced me since I still loved him. Then a few days later we had sex . We did it a lot of times, and I got pregnant. I did not tell him. I was about to, but he broke up with me. Then I finally told him, and he didn’t care. He didn’t want to help me . He found another girl . I begged him to please help me, but he wouldn’t . He kept ignoring me. I felt depressed, used, and not knowing what to do. I still loved him, and I still do.

I had an abortion done in the third month, and I regret it. I was broken. I thought that having his baby would remind me of him, and I couldn’t possibly take care of a child. I was 14, and my mom insisted on abortion. Now I regret every single little thing. The pain and grief of your baby is horrible. So first, don’t have sex with someone in this early age. Wait. I know you’re thinking , “Well it’s diffrent with me and my boyfriend.” But it’s not. I said the same thing. And second, think multiple times before choosing to get an abortion .

 Nicole

I was 14 years old when I found out. When I was pregnant I wasn’t sure how many weeks. I was probably 8 weeks or so. My mom found out on her own, and when we were at the doctors she said abortion right away. It’s like I had no other choice. She called me slut and threatened to kick me out. My brother was happy and my boyfriend, my dad.

Till this day I wish I could’ve kept my baby. Every day I regret it…every day imagining my baby would’ve been 3 years old this month or next month!

Samantha 

It was on April 7, 2010, over 2 months ago, when I had my abortion. It was the worst day of life. Me and my boyfriend were together for over a year before we started having sex, and we’re still together. As a matter of fact, he’s been my savior through all of this. I feel as though I’ve lost my family. They pushed me into my decision, and now I see their true colors. I was almost 7 weeks pregnant when I had my abortion. I already loved my baby with every piece of my heart. My parents threatened to kick me out if I didn’t abort my baby. They told me I would not live with them and that was final. I was scared and confused. I’m only 15, and my boyfriend is 17. Neither of us had jobs or anywhere to live. He was living with me because of a situation he was put in with his mom and step-dad, so we couldn’t live with his parents.

Since the abortion my family doesn’t really care too much about me. I get yelled at for crying over the loss of my child. I get put down because I don’t want to see the outside world anymore. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry most days. Everyday I wish I had chosen my unborn child over my family who doesn’t care when I’m in pain. My boyfriend is my savior and my baby is now my Angel. I still love my baby, and I miss it more than anything in life.

EricaErica 

I had my abortion two days before Christmas. I had no idea that I was pregnant until school was on break. I was seeing this way older guy (could’ve been my father), and all of a sudden I stopped. He found out that I was pregnant and completely shunned me. He made me go get an abortion. I was scared of what people would think of me. I was worried more what people would think of me if i kept the baby. I wouldn’t be able to go to school. I wouldn’t be treated the same with my friends. I didn’t tell anyone what happened over Christmas break.

It was the worst experience I have ever had. The people at the abortion center were mean and rude. I was so scared when I was all alone in that little doctor’s room. Think about what you do before you do it. That decision could be your last.

11.06.2010

RLW 

I was 13 when I first became pregnant. Back then I was in the wrong crowd, and my baby was lost due to me fighting. Then (this year) I became pregnant again, and this time I didn’t lose it due to fighting. My ex and my mom made me have an abortion and said if I didn’t, he would leave; and my mom didn’t want me hurt.

Now my baby is gone, and so my family for my life is gone completely, and everyone I grew up with  left me alone in a cruel world. So be safe when it comes to sex.

Courtney 

I was 13, but I was going to be 14 in November. I found out I was pregnant in July. My boyfriend was 17 at the time and would have been 18 in January. My boyfriend had come over with a pregnancy test. I took it, and we were both happy. We told our friends. We planned and everything, but we knew telling my mom would be extremely hard. When I told her she FORCED me into an abortion. She was going to send by boyfriend to jail if not. She wouldn’t let us see each other after that, only in school. My stepdad tried to kick me out the house, so I tried to run away, but she found me.

Now we look at everyone else and their babies, thinking how it could have been with us and our baby girl. Well, also my mom won’t let us date any more. I cry everyday, and the littlest things make me burst out into tears.

Shelby 

I am 17 years old, and I was raped by my ex boyfriend who is 18. A few days later I found out I was pregnant. I didn’t know what to think or what to do. When the doctor told me that I was pregnant I went into shock for a little while. I was soo shocked that I couldn’t even move. This is when I made the tough decision to have an abortion even though I am against it. I couldn’t go on with the pregnancy knowing that I became this way because I was raped. I have made that decision and have had the abortion already. It is a really hard decision and it takes a lot of time to come to a decision like that.

Even though I made this decision to get an abortion there isn’t a time that I don’t think about what it would be like to have my baby. I am severely depressed now, and I will never forgive myself for what I did to my unborn child. If you are thinking about getting an abortion, please remember that you aren’t alone and you have people who can help you make the decision with you. It’s not about anyone other than you and your unborn child. So before you make the decision to abort your child please think about the future and whether it is worth it or not.

Jessica 

I AM 18 YRS OLD, AND JUST BECAUSE I AM GROWN DOESN’T MEAN I CAN TAKE CARE OF ANOTHER CHILD. I ALREADY HAVE 2 KIDS, AND I COULD NOT TAKE CARE OF 3.  I THOUGHT OF HAVING AN ABORTION WITH BOTH OF MY KIDS, BUT WHEN I GOT READY TO I WOULD HEAR BABIES CRYING, AND NO ONE ELSE IN THE ROOM COULD. SO THAT IS WHY I HAD BOTH OF MY KIDS.

BUT 5 MONTHS AGO I DECIDED TO HAVE AN ABORTION, AND I WISH I WOULND’T HAVE DONE IT BECAUSE I WAS JUST BEING SELFISH. I COULD TAKE CARE OF 3 KIDS. I JUST DIDN’T WANT TO; AND NOW I HAVE DREAMS ABOUT A BEAUTIFUL LITTLE GIRL WITH LONG PONYTAILS HOLDING A TEDDY BEAR CRING, ASKING ME WHY DID I KILL HER. I ALSO HAVE DREAMS ABOUT BABY ZOMBIES. MY LIFE IS SO DEPRESSING. I DON’T WANT ANYONE TO LOVE ME BECAUSE I AM A BABY KILLER. I WISH I WOULDN’T HAVE DONE IT. I JUST WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW…DON’T BE SELFISH. YOUR CHILD WILL REALLY APRECIATE YOU WHEN HE/SHE GROWS UP AND WILL KNOW YOU DIDN’T TAKE THE CHEAP ROUTE AND DID WHAT YOU HAD TO DO TO TAKE CARE OF HIM/HER. DON’T BE A BABY KILLER!