Girl who aborted 8 years ago still regrets it

I was 21 and my boyfriend and I were broken up but still living together. We had been together for 4 years and had never really used protection and never got pregnant. Well, I did in May of that year and he and I had just gotten back together. He didn’t think it was his and convinced me to get an abortion. Of course they counsel you beforehand, but they don’t tell you about the hole it leaves in your soul and heart forever. I would have a 8 year old child now. I have asked God for forgiveness but I don’t know if I can ever forgive myself. I’m 30 years old now and I have tried with my fiancee to get pregnant and I am so scared that I threw away my one and only chance to have a baby. thank you for letting me tell my story.