Girl who aborted at 16 still regrets it at 20

I was 16 when I got pregnant, my boyfriend wasn’t even really my boyfriend at the time, I went to the hospital for stomach pains and they told me I was pregnant. Did an ultrasound and everything being a hospital that didn’t support abortion. My mom cried and said you have to abort it, my ex said the same thing. My mom told me she would send me to a shelter for pregnant teens if I kept it. I remember driving there and arriving to protesters outside waving signs of dead baby fetuses. I did not want to do it, but I did. And it was the worst experience of my life, I could give anything even my own life to have had that baby, who would be about 3 and a half now, I am 20.