Teen who aborted says, “I will have to forever live with the idea that I killed my first child.”

Zigga
I found out I was pregnant four months ago. I thought that I wouldn’t be because when my boyfriends condom broke, we got the morning after pill the next day. When my period hadn’t come, I began to worry but my boyfriend continued to tell me that everything was alright. I continued to worry and eventually got a home pregnancy test. It confirmed my fear. I was pregnant. At first I just cried and cried. I was in college, had my whole life ahead of me, and didn’t want to let my family down. It hit me so fast and so hard that nothing could comfort me. I talked to my boyfriends mom about my options, she had been through the same thing when she was my age and had decided to keep it. She strongly advised that I should get rid of it because she could tell that neiter one of us was ready to take care of a child. Later that week I called the local planned parenthood that was near my college and I had my baby aborted. I was so early into it that I was able to take the two pills to abort so it was easier on me but everyday I feel as though something is missing. There are nights when I cry myself to sleep. My boyfriend, who had promised that this wouldn’t change our relationship, is now out of my life. I found out the hard way that he wasn’t right for me after the cheating and lying. Some days I think it was okay to get rid of the baby because it’s father wouldn’t be in it’s life and if by some chance he was, he wouldn’t be the father I would want for my baby. Most days I can’t deal with the decision I made. I had such strong beliefs that abortion was wrong. I sometimes can’t even look at myself in the mirror. My life has changed completely. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t tell my baby that I’m sorry. I will have to forever live with the idea that I killed my first child.

This teen and her boyfriend didn’t want the abortion but people around them did.

Zulla
my and this guy thought we were madly in love like true love and that day we shared our feeling together. when school started around in august my boyfriend had a feeling that i was going to be pregnant cause he told me that he wasnt wearing no condom i was mad as hell so i took the pregnancy test well im pregnant i was mad, cause i didnt plan on having a baby my boyfriend was happy that im pregnant during in class i was thinking and think how am i going to raise this baby am i going to give it up for a adoption see abortion never came across my mind then my boyfriend mom called my house and told my grandma that im pregnant then she told everybody who lived inside the house everybody wanted me to have a abortion i just denied it everybody was telling me just be selfish for one time they were giving me some negitive talk that i cant raise this baby at all i had got my abortion on september 5 and i will never forget the first time i actually saw my baby everyday i would wow i would be 6 month wondering what the sex of the baby everyday i regret it i just wish i would had read the story that i just found this web site telling how depressing the abortion is once they got it done now im feeling the same like everyday i have to pretend nothing happen and that im fine who needs a baby in my life im glad i had a abortion but my true feeling is why did i had a abortion why did i ever let my family words come between me and my baby well my plan was that i wanted to keep the baby until im out of high school and my baby daddy can come around but he didnt want that he want to be a man that would step up to the plate and want to be there for the baby their first word learning how to walk learning how to hold it bottle he wanted to be there ever second of it baby life but i took it away from him. he’s hurt really he is hurt he wishes that i didnt have the abortion but i did what i did and i regret i would do anything to get the feeling inside of me growing something that worth of it and i just blew it now i wanted it just some day i would get to see my baby in hevean rather it a boy of a girl i lost the baby i lost my so called “baby daddy” everything just drift apart i have nothing. abortion is not the way out it leaves you with the side affect guilty shame depress loney and it not pretty good

Teen pushed into abortion says it doesn’t hurt her mom, but it hurts her.

Zooma
i found out i was pregnate on jan 28 i didnt get my period on december neiher november i was only two months in a half when i went to the dotor the next morning i told my mom and she told me i was going to get an abortion me and my boyfiend did not aggre with that i was scare sooner that day she took me to mexico to get pills i had no choice but to drink themi cried it was a big pain but really a perant always wants the best for us but like im a minor they think we dont have the right to make our own choices!!! this is the biggest thing i had faced in my life now what hurts more is that it dont hurt my mom in anyway but this is going to be on my mind all my life because the fault of my mom!!! yea! we might be minors but we do whatever with our life and body…

Teen who had a medical abortion says, “I hate myself.”

Zeally
On July 17 I went and got a medical abortion. I wanted the baby, but the guy I was pregnant by didn’t. He is black and I’m white and he made the statement he didn’t wnat a child to a white girl because he had a black girl pregnant already. I struggled for about a week over what to do. My mom didn’t want me to get the abortion, but my dad said he would throw me out if I didn’t. I considered moving to Maryland, having the baby, and living with my mom, but decided to have the abortion because there would be no father figure. Everyday when I see the babies in the daycare at my school and the pregnant girls I hate myself. I had no right to take my child’s life away before I even gave him or her the chance to live.

Girl who aborted says, “I felt like my insides had been ripped to shreds.”

Ziggy
Im only 17 and found out I was pregnant a few days before new years, I had never been so scared and I have never cried so many tears, my boyfriend made it clear he was not ready for a baby but he wud be there whatever I chose, I never liked abortions and was leaning towards taking responsibility for my actions and keeping it, but after thinking how my boyfriend wouldn’t be thrilled and how I wanted to be able to do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted i ended up being selfish and getting my abortion, I will always remember that day in exact detail, even with my boyfriend right by my side I have never felt as lonely as I did sitting in that clinic, after all was done I felt groggy and like my insides had been ripped to shreads, I was kind of relieved that I didn’t have to sit up all night with worry anymore but I was guilty that I could deny my own unborn baby life all because im just to selfish, if I ever fall pregnant again I will give that baby the life it deserves. Think hard about your decision, there’s no turning back.

Teen who was pushed into abortion says, “I’ll never forgive myself.”

Zinny
I was only 14 when i realized that I was pregnant. I had been with my boyfriend for a long time and we had been fooling around and then . . . he left me. It was hard enough to have to deal with losing him ,but after about a month and a half my chest was swollen and hurting a lot, and a few days later i was throwing up and feeling really nauseous. I remember lloking at that little test and freaking out. I wasnt afraid to have the child growing in me, but I was afraid of my family and what the would do to me and how they would treat me and look at me. I told my ex boyfriend I was pregnant with his child and asked him what I should do. He told me to do whatever I wanted he said that it wasnt inside him so he had no right to make a decision, I think his lack of csaring was when I first realized I was in this absolutly alone. I remember the day I got my abortion. I felt so bad and the nurses kept saying are you sure you want to do this? that was the hardest part for me. Because i didnt want todo it. But my mom had told me that if i kept it and had it she would make me let it get adopted and that she wouldnt help me at all. I remember weeks prior to the abortion I would get in the shower and sit cause i didnt have the energy to stand and id just cry and tell the baby that was inside me growing how aorry I was and how I didnt want to but I didnt have a choice. I regret it no so much and I wish that I could have had the strength tp stand up for myself and to not acre so much what my family thought of me. I still find myself crying all the time and I know in my heart that I’ll never get over this. Ill never forgive myself.

Teen pushed into abortion says, “It was never my intention to kill my first baby.”

Zonya
In may last year i found out i was pregnant.i hadnt had my period for two months so i descided to take a pregancny test, not thinkin that it would come out postive.i never though that this would happen to me. i didt know what to do i was soo confused.i went to a place and got a pregancny texst done just tp make sure.they told me i was over 16 months.i just broke out cryin because i was 4 months and i hadnt even known.i had to telll my mom because i didnt have the money for an abortion.my mom told me right away that i had to get an abortion, i had no say in what i wanted, i nver would had chose an abortion.i got an appoinment for the abortion on july 8. when i got there i never though that it was gona b so hard. since i was on my second trismester it was kinda of painful and i was throwing up everywhere.when i woke up from the procedure it seeem lik everuthing had chnaged, nothing was the same anymore. It’s been months and i still havent gotten over it,in the first few months i use to be depress all the time.no day passes without me thinking about it.i regret doing what i did because it was never my intentions to kill my first baby.i never knew that ending a pregnancy was going to b so hard.its lik a scar that stays with you forever.so really thinking what you getting urself into because is not the easy way out.my life changed forever after this.

Girl who aborted says, “It haunts you every day.”

Zolo
I got pregnant last may. I was already 18, and my parents wouldnt have been upset. My boyfriend of two years had a drug problem. We broke up in June and he went to live in Washington(across the united states.) We kept in touch everyday but I still hadn’t told him about the baby. He came back in July and we broke things off for good. I was running out of time and had no one to help me make this desicion. I decided to get an abortion to protect him he was only 17, a herion addict, and had enough to worry about. He was in no shape to be a father. And I didnt want to be a single parent and have my child growing up around a father like that. Also I didnt want my parents raising the baby. Having an abortion was the hardest decision i’ve ever had to make. I regret it everyday. I did it to try and protect someone else and ended up killing someone so innocent. It haunts you everyday. I’ll never forgive myself.

Teen’s forced abortion has destroyed her view of life and family

Zana dreamstime_xs_28390377
I though i was in Love. I had the one person i had ever felt love for, we was together for about 2 1/2 years and i got pregnant. I was so happy the one thing i wanted was to love someone and have them love me back unconditionally, but my world turned upside down. I was forced into an abortion by the babys dad. he said if i had kept the kid i would never see my baby ever. so i got the abortion. it was the worse mistake of my life. I feel like i am missing apart of me. the babys dad and i arnt getting along,hes so ungreatful, but he made me do this and i didnt want to do it. after the abortion he told me that ill never make a good mom and that if i had a baby i would be a loser mom and going on saying stuff that he shouldnt be saying after i got an abortion. i slipped into a deep depression to where i was self harming. please never get an abortion your baby has a right to live and grow, no matter what anybody says as soon as the the cells join, its a HUMAN LIFE it may not look like a baby at first but it is. im 18 everyone told me i made the right decision, well they are wrong, only you can make the right decision. because of all this i never want to have a family i never want to love anybody ever again its not worth going through the emotional disterbences keep your baby, it may be hard but its worth every day you devote your life to your baby.

Teen who aborted received text from her boyfriend too late to stop the abortion.

Zally dreamstime_xs_26659317
I was 16 when I found out I was pregnant. I was so scared I didn’t know what to do, but my boyfriend said that we could make it having a baby. In the beginning of my pregnancy, I was in denial because I thought nothing like this could happen to me. Scared of telling my parents, they found out. My dad has suggested for me to get the abortion because my sister had just had her baby and they said I was too young to have a baby.
In March, me and my boyfriend had ups and downs in our relationship. When I went to the clinic for the procedure, I heard screams wondering if that was going to be me. As I texted my boyfriend, I kept telling him I was scared. After the abortion, I looked back at my phone to see a text message asking, “CAN WE KEEP IT?” That brought tears to my eyes because now when I look at my niece and other babies, I begin to get emotional wondering if that could’ve been me.

Girl of 15 who was forced to abort at 4 months says, “I’m a killer.”

Zimma dreamstime_xs_22114198
I was 15 years old when I find out I was pregnant. My boyfriend was 17 ant that time and he did not feel like he was ready for a baby. When I went to the doctor they told me I was 4 months pregnant and gave me prenatal vitamins.

My boyfriend and my aunt pressured me to get an abortion and I did. That was the biggest mistake I made no I can’t sleep, and I’ll cry all the time because I’m a killer. I KILLED MY OWN BABY.

I will give you an advice DON’T DO IT…It is not worth it a baby is the best gift God can give you. Keep your baby…

Girl who was forced to abort says, “I cry every day, always stressed.”

Zoey dreamstime_xs_33499267
Im 17 and i had found out i was 6 weeks and 3 day pregnant. When my mom and dad found out the said i was getting an abortion. I told them dat i didnt believe an abortions. They was like im go 2 start. So i got home & my father told my mom 2 take my phone and tv like i did an crime. So my mom read my text message in my phone & can down 2 my room and hit me in my face. I was cryin. I was happy that i was pregnant & my boyfriend was happy 2. He told his mom wen i didnt even know i was. My boyfriend came over to talk to my mom but she went 2 work so went upstairs 2 go tell him how many weeks i was. He told me dnt get in abortion before he left. I told my mom that he came to talk 2 her. She yelled at me & hit me in my face again den my dad came down to my room in started to yell at me talkin about dat my boyfriend was lucky dat he wasnt he wen he came over. I had 2 kill my baby on my bday i was 8 weeks. I cry ever day always stressed. I still go with my boyfriend we are gettin married later after skool.

Teen who aborted says, “Being a good mother has no age restrictions.”

Zemma
I found out that i was 9 weeks pregnant in May, just after my 16th Birthday. I had just taken my GCSE’s and had a place confirmed studying A Levels in College in September. I had been with my boyfriend for 9 months previous, but he said that we wern’t ready for a baby, which i look back on now and think that he was right and there was no way that i was mature enough for a child. It all happened so fast! By June, an appointment was booked to abort the baby at 13 weeks. However, i still continue to feel incredibly guilty for choosing to have an abortion, to end someones life, dispite the fact that it was logically the right decision. It ws unfair for me to bring a baby into the world, not knowing wether i would be able to support it – financially. I still think of how things could have turned out if the path i took would have been different and it breaks my heart! My upmost respect goes out to all the loving teenage mothers out there – being a good mother has no age restrictions!!

Teen pushed into two abortions says, “I feel like a murderer.”

Zilly
i was 16 when i had my first baby..it was for my boyfriend which i have been with for a year and a couple of months..i knew it was his..i was 2 months pregnant.after having all the morning sickness and the pains i tried taking pills that way my mum wouldnt know anything..i didnt want to get rid of my baby but i had no choice.but though i took all those pills nothing happend. i started to fail test at school cause i’ll be spending more time in the girls room being sick. then one morning instead of going to school i decided on telling my mum i ws pregnant for my boyfriend..my mum didnt think about anything else but abortion..it felt so wrong but i couldnt say anything..
six months after december i was with another guy cause my previous boyfriend left me cause of the pregnancy.i was fooling around thinking that it wont happen again when i was late for two weeks. i was scared and knew that i was pregant again after six months.i went to the doctor after a long weeken thinking what im going to do with a baby and how im going to tell my mom. when i went to the doctor they told me my test was positive.i burst out crying with sadness and happiness at the same time, thinking that maybe god has sent me this child again for some reason. again i went to tell my mom and again she told me that i must have an abortion.i fought saying no i wanna keep my baby even if i have to be on the streets i’ll survive one way or another. but the same day that i gave her the news i had the abortion. i feel like i murderer,an evil person,amptiness in my life. all i ever think about is the babies.i wish i could just turn back time no matter what and have my child with me in my arms knowing that i could have kept them safe without anyone hurting them.
i even had names for them..but at least my last boyfriend stood by me through the pains and sadness not like the 1st one.
i miss my two angels

Teen’s abortion at 12 years old still regretted at 17.

Zima
I was only 12 years old when i found out i was about to bring a baby girl or boy in this world my boy friend was 16 we were taking a break at the time i found out and when i told him he was all for having an abortion and so was i my mom would have killed me so i told my god mother, and me, my boy friend, and my god mother did it. im 17 now and still with the same guy we are now about to bring a baby girl in this world but we also have to live with knowing we killed our 1st child and it hurts everyday so if your thinkng about doing the same thing please think hard and long because its something you have to live with for the rest of you life

Teen who aborted says, “I hate myself for killing my child.”

Zella
Well, I was eighteen and a senior in high school when I found out that I was pregnant. I immediately told my boyfriend of one year, both of us were shocked to say the least. He wanted me to get an abortion, he and I knew very well that we couldn’t raise a child. Having always been against abortion I mentioned adoption, he thought that it would be hard on me because I was still in school and living in a small town, privacy is hard to come by and dropping out wasn’t an option. So, I had made horrible decision to have an abortion, regretfully! On January 13 I had my baby aborted. I hate myself for killing my child, that night I cried myself to sleep asking why I’d made the decision I had made. I tried putting blame on my boyfriend but I know it wasn’t him, he supported me.
I will always regret the selfish choice I made, it’s something I can never redeem. Knowing that I willing aborted my nine week old child is a awful feeling and I wish it upon NO girl.
Please if your in this situation think long and hard about your choice, this isn’t something you should rush into or be pushed into. Think.

Girl who aborted says, “I hide my pain from all but my boyfriend.”

Zena
I aborted my baby on the 16th of December….I only did it because i was tired of my aunts calling me names and i didn’t want the father to go to jail. He was 18 and i was only 15.He didn’t want to abort and i didn’t either. But i was scared and i didn’t know what to do. Some people knew and my whole family knew as well. I regretted it from the moment i saw the sonogram to the moment i was sitting in the recovery room. I was 11 weeks and a day old. And i had something living in me.. No one can ignore that but they choose to while i hide my pain from all but my boyfriend.

Teen who aborted says, “I regret it more and more every day.”

Adreanna
Taking the pregnancy test I already knew the outcome. I had missed a period so that, for me, was pretty much the dead give away. At the time of me finding out my boyfriend & I had been together for about 9 months. I talked to my friends about it & every single one said to keep it, which is what I had planned on doing anyways, but I knew that my boyfriend had a say-so as well. We talked about it & it was completely obvious that he didnt want it. His reason was not having money. At the time i didnt have a job & he barely made enough to support himself, let alone me & a child. So not long after that I got an aboriton. Its now a month & some after & I regret it more & more everyday. If it was to ever happen again I`d keep it in a heartbeat. No matter what my boyfriend, family, or friends think. I see it like this, if you are mature enough to make a baby, then you should be mature enough to take responsiblity for one as well.

Girl who aborted says, “It has changed me for the worse.”

dreamstime_xs_24558638
I had been with my boyfriend for 11 months when I fell pregnant.

I was only 16 and didn’t know what to do. Didn’t tell anyone except my boyfriend & friend.

I didn’t give much thought and decided to go for the abortion.

Worst decision ever !

The day of the abortion going to the hospital my boyfriend asked if I wanted to do this. I lied and said yes.

I cry and i am sick about it every day.

I feel i have nobody to talk to about it and want to tell total strangers!

It has changed me for the worse.

Girl who aborted says she was a coward for not believing in herself

Teen Adelaide
I WAS 17 YEARS OLD WHEN I HAD MY ABORTION.WHEN I TOLD MY BOYFRIEND HE SEEMED ANGRY AND AT TIMES HE MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS RUINING HIS LIFE.HE MADE IT SEEMED LIKE IT WASNT HIS CHILD EVEN THOUGH IT WAS.THAT TORE ME INTO PIECES I LOVED MY BOYFRIEND SO MUCH BUT IT BROKE MY HEART THAT HE DIDNT WANT TO BE HERE WITH MY BABY AND ME. WHEN I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT I WAS 9 WEEKS PREGNANT AND I WAS SO HAPPY BECAUSE I KNEW THAT I WAS READY TO MAKE MY BOYFRIEND AND MY BABY HAPPY. I ALWAYS WENT TO THE DOCTORS WITH MY BOYFRIEND BUT HE WAS ALWAYS TELLING ME THAT WE COULDNT HAVE THE BABY.I THOUGHT BY HIM HEARING THE HEART BEAT THAT WAS GOING TO MAKE HIM CLOSER TO THE BABY BUT IT DIDNT.I WAITED SUCH A LONG TIME THAT IT ENDED UP BEING 4 MONTHS AND THREE WEEKS WHEN I HAD MY ABORTION.MY MOM WAS NOTICING THE PREGNACY AND SHE WOULD TELL ME THAT I WAS GETTIN BIG BUT I WOULD DENY IT.SHE HAD EVEN FOUND A CERTICATE SAYING THAT I WAS PREGNANT BUT SHE WAS IN DENIAL. ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT I WOULD NEVER DO THAT AGAIN THAT I REGRET HAVING TO LOSE MY FIRST BABY. I LOVE MY BABY MORE THAN ILL EVER LOVE ANYONE.ALL I COULD SAY IS THAT I WAS A COWARD BECAUSE I DIDNT BELIEVE IN MYSELF .I KNEW I COULD BE A GOOD MOTHER BUT I LET OTHERS WORDS GET TO ME.MY BABY IS ALWAYS IN MY HEART AND MY MEMORIES.
DEDICATION TO MY BABY:EVEN THOUGH NO ONE BELIEVED IN US JUST KNOW THAT YOU WERE THE ONE THAT BROUGHT MY HAPPINESS WHEN I WAS ALONE AND YOU WERE MY COMFORT WHEN I I DIDNT FELL LOVED.I LOVE YOU AND MY TEARS ARE THE ONES THAT PROVE MY LONELY LIFE WITHOUT YOU.

Girl who aborted tells others to “stand up for yourself and your baby”

Teen Adeline
When i was 14 years old, i found out i was pregnant. About a month passed and my mother came to me and said, “have you had your period this month?” i remember thinking that there was no way i could have been pregnant. But sure enough, i was. My mom then called my whole family crying, and telling them i was pregnant. i remember her yelling at me and saying “I will not be a grandmother at 32” long story short, i ended up having an abortion. Being so young, i did not know that I had the choice of whether or not i was going to have my child… Years have passed and i am now 17 years old and pregnant once again. There is not a day that goes by that i dont think about the abortion and how unfair it was to my unborn child. Think before you make any rash decisons.. because it really is something that you will have to live with for the rest of your life.. stand up for your self, and your baby.

Girl who aborted at 6 months says she looks at the ultrasound of her baby every day

Teen Adelina
i am 16 years old, i had an abortiion when i was 15 years old when i was 6mnths in and it was the worst day of my life i didt tell my mum or dad and it was so hard to hide it they kept on saying are you sure your well enough to go to school because i kept on being sick and i gues they didt think anything like that would of been the problem, its been 5months now since i had the abortion and if i could go back i would i would never of gone and i would have her in my arms now i look at the ultra sound scan of 6mnths a week before the abortion i had a scan and i look at it every day and it macks me cry. but i have a msg to girls who get pg being a teen be strong and do whats right at the time and tell your perants. at the time i couldt of coped with having a daughter but me and my boyfriend did stick to gether and weve been together for 19mnths now 🙂 so you must not be scard and do whats right by you.

Teen who aborted warns others that abortion is “life changing”

Teen Adelene
i had all the symptoms, i thought i had a great guy bt was he? no.he talked about his finacial difficulties how we cant keep the baby. i found out that i was expecting somewhere in november, somehow he already knew i might be pregnant. the 2nd of january thats when it all happened. if i knew then that i would feel this way today i would have never done it and now it feels that i must get my baby back. it was really a horrible experience and if i had a chance to make that wrong a right i would do it in a heartbeat, think about it before you do it, its life changing

Teen who aborted recalls the pain and complications she had

Teen Adelia
I was only 16 when i got pregnant. I couldn’t believe it. I felt so lonely and scared. I wasn’t ready to have a baby. And the guy i was dating at the time wasnt ready either. So we decieded to get a abortion. JANUARY 9 Is a day i will never forget. I felt so bad for getting it. It hurt and i was in alot of pain. Afterwards…. I had many problem from the abortion. I had complications and i was very depressed. I was bleeding alot after the abortion. I had to go to the hosptial twice afterward because the bleeding was so heavy and i was bleeding baseball sized blood clots. I was so scared and lonely that all this had happened when i could have kept my unborn child. I had to go through all this pain by myself because after the abortion, the guy who i was dating left me because he changed his mind about having the abortion. If I could go back i would. I would have kept my child!

Girl who aborted sees her aborted baby in her daughter’s eyes

Teen Adele
I was 16 when I had gotten pregnant with my first and the love of my life. I was fine until about 9 weeks after I could have gotten pregnant, that’s when symptoms started to show. I started throwing up, stomach pains, and pains in my breast. I went to planned parenthood to take and pregnancy test, which was indeed positive. My heart dropped and fear ran across my face. My boyfriend was the first to tell, he was just as scared as me he made the decision mine and I was scared and confused. Me and him both sat down and decision we both had so much we wanted right at that moment as teenagers so abortion came to our mind. Then we both sat and talked to our parents, talking to my mom was a big step for me because I know disappointed her but she said she was happy I came to her instead of doing it my self. A month later I found myself laying on a table and my boyfriend holding my hand as pain ran between my legs for hour. It was better when it was over. Today I have a 3month old daughter and me and my boyfriend still think about that abortion and cry. And everytime I think about it guilt run across my heart as I look in my daughter eyes and smile knowing that, that baby I aborted would of been something like my 3 month old. For you young girls out there it’s best to wait if you gonna have sex please use a comdom it’s hard being a teen and raising a baby