Now that it has been almost a year since my abortion, I cannot really do anything but think about what I did to my child.

I was dating an amazing guy. I was his first, and he was my first. We had it in our minds that we would be together forever, but that all changed when I found out I was pregnant. I wanted to keep the baby, but he made me choose. He said, and I quote, It is either me, or THAT! I wanted to be with him SO bad that I made my appointment at the clinic for two weeks from that day.

I thought no one would find out about it; but he told his best friend, who told another person, who told another person; and eventually it got around to everyone; and I was chastised for it every day of my life until this day.

I wake up at night, and I think I hear a baby crying, but then I realize that it is only in my head, and I lie back down and cry myself back to sleep. Girls and Guys, abortion IS permanent. It IS a horrible thing to have to go through, and it IS NOT the only way out.