Teen who aborted was tricked by her mother

I got pregnant with an aquaintence of mine who I only see every once in a while when I was 15. I missed my period, and I thoght I was pregnant. I told my best friend, and he told me not to worry until I took a test. So I did. It was positive. I texted my best friend and told him right away. He texted me back telling me he would lend me money for an abortion if I wanted. He also told me he would stand by me if I decided to keep the baby. I didn’t want to abort my baby. The next day was a Monday, and I had stayed up late the night before thinking, so I was running late. I left my cellphone in my room and I went to school. I was riding the bus home, and one of my friends recieved a phonecall from my mother. She told me I had an orthodontist appointment and to go straight home, so I did. I got into the car with my mother and we were already on the road when she handed me my cellphone. Right then I knew she had read my texts. She told me we were going to a clinic, and that I was going to have an abortion. I asked her if I could have some time to think about it, but she told me I should have thought before I had sex, which made sense to me at the time. I was so scared. I’ve tried to kill myself three times since then, I have nightmares of the clinic almost every night and I get the worst déjà vu. I can barely talk to my parents anymore. I wish I could have kept my baby.