I’m a 20 year old single mother of a 2 1/2 year old little boy. I became pregnant again, and the father of the baby gave me no input on what to do. He has one kid already and just had a baby with one of my friends. He told me he loved me and wanted to be with me. I went away for 2months and came back to find out he got my friend pregnant. I was then 2 months pregnant. He wasn’t helping me make a decision and I was not about to care for another child right now the way my life is going, I have a crappy job, and am staying with a friend right now. My mom talked about doing an abortion. I went to the clinic for 3 appts. The second appt I saw the baby and tears swelled my eyes. I went threw with it. And now I hate myself for it. I can’t believe I murdered my own child. It haunts me everyday of my life. I swore I’d never do that. Now the guy wants to be with me and says he will do anything. But the last thing I wanna do is be with someone who didn’t give a crap when I was pregnant. Life just hurts. And its so hard to deal with now more then ever.